Who knew colouring 4 pieces of crap takes ages? I think, in total, perhaps 6-7 hours. And no, I didn’t move around to slack but intense concentration.
Here will see a cease of activity- I’m moving to another blog. Not much time for updates, nor do I like the fact this is acessible to certain people.
So colour me pretty, off. Email for the new url. Adios.
Plural form are letters strung together- pictures speak thousands of those, actions louder.
Suppose I saw what you wrote in your messaging display- ironic, one is kisses, the other wicked game you play. The one that I wished was mine wasn’t, and the one I wished isn’t is.
Suppose I told you I only smoked 2 sticks today- big deal, because it is so.
Suppose I cancelled tuition and took a break- only to find myself still as disoragnised, fatigued, lack of sleep and no work done.
Suppose mommy is way more controlling and suspicious- she would spot my cigarette box in the car in the morning, and why huge amounts of food disappear, followed by mine to the bathroom.
Suppose by magic, I would get my composition and final draft done for my basic drawing.
Suppose, irrelevantly- I hate all of you.
My darl’s in vietnam, my lover boy in Indonesia. I suppose I could do myself good and scoot off to malaysia, I wouldn’t mind a walk down KL But oh the restrains and hassle by Money. I think we have a culprit.
I would like to show you a picture I took- but since my bill is unpaid my line got cut off so no mms. Got off work after only an hour and a half, because I was too tired.
A funny sort of day, I could get used to this. I am frustrated, I only want my projects to be done with-
Could it be any tougher?
The smell of vomit on my shirt.
The song repeating on my MP3 player- yeah I got one. It’s me and you- like how I deleted most of your messages, 3 months ago. How time flies…
On the cafe pavement, I read through your messgaes and deleted them. But some, still touched my heart.
TOTAL ECLIPSE OF THE HEART
Bonnie Tyler
Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you’re never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit helpless and I’m lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit angry and I know I’ve got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you’ll only hold me tight
We’ll be holding on forever
And we’ll only be making it right
Cause we’ll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don’t know what to do and I’m always in the dark
We’re living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever’s gonna start tonight
Forever’s gonna start tonight
Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I’m only falling apart
There’s nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there’s only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you’ll never be the boy you always you wanted to be
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you’ll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there’s no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there’s nothing any better and there’s nothing I just wouldn’t do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you’ll only hold me tight
We’ll be holding on forever
And we’ll only be making it right
Cause we’ll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don’t know what to do and I’m always in the dark
We’re living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever’s gonna start tonight
Forever’s gonna start tonight
Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I’m only falling apart
There’s nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there’s only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart
Like a sudden gastric attack, like a sudden judgement from you of all people.
Like a sudden savage attack from you, when I treated you as a good friend.
Like a sudden realisation the promises you gave, the apologies, the msgs were all bullshit.
Like a disappointment, people around you always hurt you the most. No wonder you turn to your demons, the very ones who disapprove, are actually the cause of it.
Like how we don’t talk, don’t go out, pretend we don’t exist to one another anymore.
Like a sudden dawning it’s not cement strong, but glass fragile, superficially pretty but empty, ugly, vicious.
Like a joy your darl msgs you, like a sudden feeling you have no energy to reply.
Like a brief flirt with an aquaintance, like the hurt when you see him with another girl.
Like a cigarette to calm your soul, like you realise you haven’t inhaled properly.
Like how it was just you and me, in the rain, in another world, after all these months, feeling secure and happy.
Like how yesterday was carefree footloose and fancy free, today wrecked with misery.
Like how nauseous you are but no red bull, because it is not vegetarian by a comment here.
Like how things twist and turn and you huddle in pain, for now, hoping it to unfold to better times.
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